i am simply here. i'm not necessarily loving being back, but here i am. i guess i'm just sort of apathetic to the whole thing...it's good in some ways, but i wasn't quite ready for this again.
i thought that this break would make things better. i thought maybe i'd start meeting more people. i thought that everyone would come back in better moods and we would be able to start over again. but none of that happened.
i guess it's only the second day of classes so there's plenty of time. right now i'm just focusing on my hectic schedule this month...going home next weekend to play piano, leading the worship team at camp amigo's winter youth retreat for a whole bunch of jr. highers the next week, then getting to spend some time with one of my best friends in the entire world! [that's not hectic, just super exciting!] i'll get through it all, but for now i just need to take things one step at a time.
one things i've been thinking about a lot lately is if i have any regrets about coming to goshen and continuing my education here. and sometimes i think i do. i wish i would have looked into more options that involved service or even checked out the state schools in the area that would have been way cheaper. but then again, i wouldn't change the opportunity to get to know irina for anything! she has become the one stable thing in my life and i know i can always go to her to vent or just to laugh with. and i have made come good friends here at goshen. so maybe i just would have done things a little differently if i could go back.
but no regrets.
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